crazy

I think I am going crazy. I don't know why, but I just think I am.
I wrote letters to you when I was away. I wrote them because I missed you so much and my heart ached from not talking to you. I was afraid that you had found someone else to replace me. When I got home though, I saw you immeadiately. It was amazing to see you again, it didn't matter what we did just that I was with you. You left me again though, said it was only going to be for 2-3 days. Now, its been more than that. I haven't talked to you in awhile. I decided that I would refuse to initiate conversations with you until you initiate one first conversation. You are supposed to be coming home today but I haven't heard from you. Maybe you are already home, maybe you changed the day that you will be home again. I try to pretend that I don't care that you aren't trying and wanting to talk to me and that I'm fine without you but I know that isn't true. Part of me feels like we are no longer together, someone just forgot to inform me. Please just can we be back to how we were before we went away at the beginning of the summer. I want to talk to you so badly. I want to have a conversation with you, and you know that. Hopefully you will let me know when you get home and we can talk. We can talk about us, you and me together. I hope that I'm given that chance and that I haven't lost every hope I could ever have with you.