I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. I cut my hair off trying to rid myself of this sadness I have about myself and him and whatever else but something isn't working. I feel like I'm okay one second and then 5 minutes later I feel like I'm about to just break down. I can't figure out whats wrong with me anymore! Everyone is saying that it is gonna be okay but part of me doesnt feel like it is. I don't even think I can get a guy anymore. No guy would be dumb enough to try to be with me or anything of the sort. I just want a truly nice, cute guy that likes me for who I am and nothing else. I love my friends so much right now. They were amazing this weekend and I wanna thank them for that so much. I feel like when I'm with a friend or have someone to talk to I'm not usually that upset. It is just when they leave and I'm alone or have nothing to do that I really start to think about my life and realize how upset I am. Why can't life just be easy? I just truly want that. I really want someone to talk to but I feel like I bother people even though they say they are always there for me I just feel badly trying to talk to them about my same redundant problems.
Right now I'm just sitting here listening to With Arms Outstretched by Rilo Kiley. I love this song so much but it honestly makes me so sad. I'm just trying to keep myself from crying but it is so hard to do.
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