not meant to be happy?

Maybe I'm not meant to be happy? Is that the problem? Is there another reason why I can never truly be happy anymore. I finally find myself starting to get over my problems, at least for a couple of minutes a day which is pretty much all I can get anymore. I finally start to try to ignore my constant feelings about myself being extremely fat and ugly and then of course my dad has to say something. This time it was just that I am starting to gain more weight and I should eat less and lose that weight. I was really upset but I just went along with my night activities. About an hour later I confronted him about it and said how much it hurt me and how unnecessary it really was. He was like I THINK I HAVE THE RIGHT TO TELL YOU IF YOU ARE GAINING LIKE 5 POUNDS WITHOUT YOU TELLING ME TO SAY IT. It hurts so badly right now and all I really want is for him to really truly have something nice to say to me. I don't even know why I am telling the computer about this anyway, it isn't like anyone cares enough to actually read this. I guess I just need to get my feelings out somehow.